one decision & then every day

{a precursor to my upcoming posts}

As I continue on my journey of being transparent, I am preparing to share my "all in" moment with God, the day where it hit me in the face: Jesus is bigger than my circumstances. Now, as I have begun writing my testimony, I have run into a dilemma. Some things that confused me very much as a budding Christian. 

How do you not fall away after being "saved"? My mind changes so often. I find myself loving God one minute and putting myself before Him the next. Does that mean my streak of faith is over and I have to start again? In those moments of selfishness, do I put myself back into the hands of the devil? But I'm baptized, so what does that mean?? How, exactly, am I saved?

These were real questions I struggled with growing up/ still do struggle with. However, I have come to some sort of a conclusion...

"Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned." [Mark 16:16]

Faith is a gift. If it was up to my sinful heart, I would choose sin every time. Yes, you can have your one big moment where you "Come to Jesus" but it's that one decision AND then every day after that! Every morning after my big moment, I have had to invite Jesus into my heart and let Him take control. If not, I eventually fail. 

Friends, there is freedom in giving up control. Surrendering my life to God's will was the best thing I have ever done. I no longer have to live up to a standard of perfection. Jesus did that for me. I simply live in His grace. 

AND - I never ever have to worry about "unsaving" myself, because I have been baptized and I believe. Sin once separated me, but it is there no longer. Jesus has taken that sin as far as the east is from the west. I will find my home in heaven. 

I pray that as you follow my blog, you would see the difference between HOW I came to Christ and WHY I am came to Christ. Everyone will have a different HOW, but WHY?

Jesus. Always, Jesus.