Life through Music

"Who loved me through my rebel way?

Who chose to carry all my shame?

Who breathes in me with endless life?

The king of glory Jesus Christ!"

I oftentimes find that God speaks to me through music. A LOT. 

Music has gotten me through many hard times in my life, because there's something about a rhythm and words that make you feel like you're not alone. I think there's a lot of people who can relate to that. Somehow, you'd still end up empty though. Right? Like there wasn't enough music to soothe your aching soul. Or the words weren't quite right. But you were desperate for anyone and anything to tell you that it was going to be okay. 

Fast forward to when I finally went (dare I say) all in, and let God have complete control over my life. It was the combination of many people and circumstances that brought me to that point in my life, but music was one of those things. One of those nights, we got to just listen to the piano play and sit. Be still. Know that God is God. He spoke to me that night. Not in audible words, but to my heart. Everything was going to be okay. With the piano playing softly playing in the background, I sat there. I cried. I asked God what to do. I pondered the words of the message and the songs. It was all becoming clear to me. My perspective was altering. God wanted me to surrender to His love. And I did. 

Now, instead of putting my hope in music, now I let God use music to speak to me. These lyrics spoke to my contrite heart today. Jesus is my everything. He is the reason I get out of bed in the morning. I wouldn't want to live this life if I didn't have Him to hold me. His love leads me to fight the treadmill of life. After all those years of rejecting him, making choices I knew were wrong, being a lukewarm Christian, He still loves me! All the disgust I feel towards myself disappears when I look at the face of Jesus. Someone very important to me once offered me this piece of advice, and lately, it's been replaying over and over in my head. 

"When we feel inadequate...that's when we need to focus on God the most."

He's already taken care of us! He continues to take care of us.